come full circle

Wed, 15 Jul 2009 23:19:04 GMT

i act like i am a child
but know i am a father
i act like i am
but i know that i am not
i know that i am not knower
but i know that i am knowledge
i act like i am one
but really i am none
i act like i do not see
but i see nothing but the light

Wed, 15 Jul 2009 23:14:51 GMT

eyelids up: red light district.
vague
recollections of reminiscence dawned
footbyfoot stop stop stop
looking around (go)
eyelids down: brief street
deadend.
consumption-by-creation
godsend.
blessed be martyrs
footbyfoot rising through the earth

Wed, 08 Jul 2009 03:49:49 GMT

it felt so amazing to finally hear my name said to me.
i burn.

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 23:57:44 GMT

i don't want to write anymore. this never helps. i come and i go, my friends come and go, my life comes and goes. i think its time i should just go. i'm really sorry to everyone, i just can't deal with anything anymore.
love
o

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 23:50:39 GMT

what are you afraid of losing?
you aren't afraid of anything?
oh. well then enjoy life.
i'll go back to my cave.
it's really dark but i can see light.
i think its out that way!
is it really that claustrophobic?
i think its a nice little shelter.
well have fun enjoying your day,
i'm sure you'll come back when you need me again.

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 23:45:10 GMT

you might have heard words
but i swear they disappeared
i saw it with my own eyes
the tries, fallen on constant whys
constant sighs for constant ties
to constant lies on constant cries
you might have heard
but i swear i disappear
i feel it with my own heart

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 23:41:48 GMT

i heard as a child that the world was really mild
timid, shy, kept me from running the wild
but now that i've come to grips with denial
i ask myself, whats another mile?
i keep walking, the location really doesnt matter
maybe ill walk so far my reality will just shatter
and disappear into the conciousness that cries
out into the night, to hear echoes of replies
that satisfy the feeling of being the only one
alone i'm with everything;
with everything i'm alone;
where do i turn to,
my heart is hardly a home
and when i set it free
and let it roam
its never to return.

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 23:11:12 GMT

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 23:04:43 GMT

save! safely escort them from the room
stop! certainly disaster will accompany them soon
fake! i heard lust was not at dinner tonight
shush! you wouldn't want to wake up envy
ploy! he can't dine ever with gluttony
why! that dinner would never end
but! but what, you think this life was heaven sent?

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 22:57:09 GMT

the light beams brightly bouncing off shards of colored glass
bricks and mortar held up the cross to the sky
but no longer do the stones still sit in place
the dreams and the memories have been erased
a million faces have gone to waste
staring at the ground wishing to the heavens
the light breaks boldly, blinding the masses

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 18:44:26 GMT

i must say that my heart is alive.

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 20:01:37 GMT

stay still, the night yearns for silence.
the Awakening-
redemption lies in the cold throes of whispering winds
who whip heavenly gold threads into furies;
a tempest upheaval among a sea of wheat.
the crack of thunder shatters the silence
as a blaze of passion emerges---
grains give, stems stagnate, roots release.
spread seed, spread.

tcote.

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 22:16:45 GMT

our saving grace is not esoteric (most just would rather not hear it)
your saving face as time stops (most just would rather it drops)
we see our habits as quaint tics (what is a snake if it is not venomous)
we see as a flame pops (clocks drop, tic toc.

Wed, 26 Nov 2008 15:30:28 GMT

i have a tendency to be long winded
to develop on a question that was too open ended
to compose, i re read it, pose, then edit,
letting my words form the fort from which i defended
the controversy! i will admit i said it
these cracks, perhaps, will never be mended
some lie, they say sin did it
i say life is beautiful, a hand extended

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 23:09:46 GMT

days of adolescent, "you should be unique!"
Weeks later, "control what you think!"
deformed seedling amongst the forest of the same
i aint a lumberjack, im just axing for change
{let it sink in, or it'll die in your brain}

preposterous propositions posturing prepositions
against the wall, declining subjects for dispositions
legally; my disposition contrapositive clearly crazy
ethic untouched, in a rush, limping into lazy
still slithering under the haven for haze
will withering under the heavens handle my gaze?
Whirlwind capsizing the old guard of days
while the New guard waits to weigh in on its new ways.

wip.

STOP BEING SO TWO-FACED.

Fri, 08 Aug 2008 23:35:55 GMT

You love or you don't.

random thoughts

Mon, 04 Aug 2008 19:38:55 GMT

when i was young, tumbling into dreams as if hurled:
forget the absurd! (is all i ever heard)
my mind, tumultuous as a thunderstorm, constantly dripping words;
this is from which my passion first unfurled, innocent and infinite.

i burn like the sky after the lightning fades away
the night illuminated shows the day
like some stray beam from a sun ray

i'm going to be the reason for growth,
the rain in the sunshine when there is no hope
for all has gone dry
i'm going to be the reason for growth,
the sunshine in the rain when there is no hope
for all

Tue, 29 Jul 2008 17:44:36 GMT

i, too, have watched the clouds roll in.
accompanied by a taste for disorder,
chaos seems to ensue. but,
this is the way of natural order.
do you catch the waft of rain?
do your eyes light the skies?
or do they fight the cries?
is all you see pain?
i, too, have watched the sun break.
emerged from the darkness, rays
peering into me with life anew.

let chaos ensue.

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 17:28:34 GMT

personally, no pity passes for people of poverty
rather, i revel in a rare respect for rich revelations
where one would oppose wealth of worldly origin.
clearly the sky is both above and below us
the heavens, two hands formed to hold us

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 16:35:05 GMT

stepping out of darkness into light
emerging from wholeness despite,
a holiness which leads to a big black hole
a soul which feeds on a a lack of hold
an energy so abundant, no need to be bold
for this is how it is, since the night of old

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 17:24:52 GMT

Trip much?
http://www.dali-gallery.com/html/works/1960_19.htm
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CNFOvOJZoWw

Tue, 18 Dec 2007 04:19:31 GMT

grr. someone, anyone.

Fri, 14 Dec 2007 01:05:05 GMT

the past sins written in blood
now white with innocence since you touched me my love
giving me the peace that came from above
and i have been looking you know
for some sort of sign to force it in front of my face
but now that i realize its always been there, hidden in the right place

Thu, 13 Dec 2007 04:00:01 GMT

i'm sorry to say that i've ignored all those things that i value in my quest to relieve myself. pain and suffering are the illusion of those who believe in them. i do not believe that we are destined to suffer. i do not hope for a recovery because i have recovered. that is not to say that i will not relapse, but with the utmost vigilance i will tend to my life to reach a point where i am able to help others.

Thu, 13 Dec 2007 03:56:36 GMT

grasping for the truth
stories falling from the mind
eternally unreachable from the moment

images and ideas from the words
forever are lodged within the heart
for there is where all knowing stows

worry not, the mind imagines
but when the heart believes the mind
then life is endless sin